I’m feeling really unaccomplished. I’m not having a pitty party, don’t worry. I’m just…stuck.
I’ve been back in Virginia for about 6 weeks and the plan that once was, isn’t anymore. Things have changed dramatically, and there is a very large chance we could be moving to Raleigh.
I’m very excited at the idea of going back to North Carolina. I feel like my heart is still there, and I want nothing more to be a North Carolinian. I just feel like I’m sort of on a delay at this point. I dropped the two classes I was registered for because the chance of us moving before the semester is up is very great. Dropping the two courses won’t put me behind a semester, so in the long run, it’s irrelevant.
I sort of feel like I’ve done things really backwards, therefor messing with my idea of my persona. I know I’m a big girl and am responsible for the decisions I’ve made, I just hate that I can’t seem to stick with anything. It’s exhausting to continually be in transition.
I have my fingers, toes, arms and legs crossed that this Raleigh move gets underway quickly so that I can settle into a routine and enter a world of stability as opposed to transition.